unspoken dream .

2011-09-26T05:01:00.001-07:00

2011-09-26T04:45:00.000-07:00

Things change, people change, feelings change. I guess, you're way too busy with your life without realising what's happening around us. I'm no longer your top 3 priority. I'm no longer the one that make you smile when you're down. I'm no longer the one that satisfy you every now and then. Those laughter we used to have, no longer be heard. Those memories we had, no longer be seen. Those great moments we had, can't be felt. We're are way to busy focusing on our schedules. Feeling absence is not the same anymore. Those words we used to say, it just not right anymore. Feeling hurt yet devastated, I gotta hide these away from you. Still praying that you'll realised it soon before I decided to make my own decisions.

2011-09-23T01:14:00.000-07:00

Hey, it's been so long since i last bloggggggg. BFF making noise already so i better update my blog.. Well, TOO many things happening around me.. 1) After a month getting to know this Rizal, I decided to move on and start a new chapter with him. 18th May 2011 was the official day. It just happened but sadly, that day was a bad day to start with cause something came up with EX-boyfriend and friends. Thank you everything's fine even after they told everything about me to Rizal. I thanked God that we met each other. After those harsh words they described about me, Rizal never fail to stood by me. Its already our 4 months and 5 days.. and we're still counting.. He'd already started saving money for future. I mean, OUR future. Insya'allah. I really hope that he's the LAST. Only God knows what i feel about him. He never complains at all.. At times, i do admit that we do quarrell. It's part and parcel of relationship BUT it doesn't feel as though we're quarrelling.. he's ever so patience towards me..I don't know, He's just someone different and until now, i can't get any answer. enough talking about us.. 2)I started working as an Enrolled Nurse in SGH. Started on the 16th May 2011. Yes, 4 months and a week of experience in a whole new environment and atmosphere. I have an awesome collegues to work with. At first, i had a hard time to catch up with things and i always having BURNOUT! Alhamdulillah, my collegues never fails to put a smile on my face and always willing to give me a hand. As a SGH employee, im very glad to join their family. Lots of benefits, lots of entertainment etc. Will be having my first chalet&BBQ night with my awesome people soon! I can't wait! and i hope that They will approved the roster upon my request. i got to go now... will be having sushi with my two lovely collegues, Aziah & Kasinah.

AT LAST, WE MET!!! :DDDDDDD

2011-05-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

I'm currently dating a guy named, Rizal. We chatted in fb the week i came back from New Zealand, 110311 and I just met him on 220411. He's 24 this year, a cousin of my friend and an old friend of my cousin. Im just starting to feel the in light in me, again.. I hope this time he's true. I don't wanna meet anymore fake people. We spend time together. He brought me to meet his friends and relatives. He teaches me life. He's always there to be my backbone when im emotionally stressed, depressed but BFF couldn't be my side.. He's the first who actually talk about my BFF and how much he's willing to meet my BFF. He always gaining trust to others. He's also the first to actually wanted to fetch me at my doorstep and seek permission from my mom so that he's able to bring me out. There so many things about him eventhough he might not be the one in my PrinceCharming list, I still adores him. update more soon...

p/s: Maybe it's not the right time for me to fall for you but I certainly fall for the great time we spent together. :DD

2011-05-01T07:04:00.000-07:00

Hey bloggers, It's been ages since I last update my blog.

Last updated was about Single, Mingle, Jingle right? hmm. I'll guess, I''ll continue from there. I'll be elaborating more on what and how did it happen.

The story telling session starts here..

Introduction:
Fiq likes this girl, ****** before he met me but she rejected. After getting attached to me, ****** confessed to Fiq that she regretted rejecting him in msn. After the confessing and stuffs, they keep in contact even after I, as his girlfriend, felt uncomfortable and tried my best to ignore my instincts..

Months later, few weeks before our 1st year Anniversary, we quarrelled almost everyday. Even when we're on the road to Geylang to buy our matching Baju Kurung for Raya. On our 1st year Anniversary, we di'n't spend much together. There's an awkward conversation between me and Fiq.

He asked, "What if I tell you that I''ve been meeting another girl besides you?"

Trying to keep myself calm, I answered, "Then, thanks for telling me the truth."
Trying to put a smile on my face.

"I was just joking.." He replied.
I was so suspicious about it because I know who my boyfriend(at that point*) is.

2 days later,Fiq didn't replied my morning msgs and I assumed that he was still asleep. Then, I saw him with another girl alone at a coffeeshop near to my house. I recognised her but she's not one of my neighbourhood friend so I ignored. Closing one eye...

After a few hours, He called and said, "Sorry baby, I went to eat at Aiman with grandpa just now but I left my phone at home." without a word from me, he continued.. "After eating then grandpa had to leave and I accidentally bumped into my old friend, a girl who stays in Jurong West(when I know who she really is and she stays in *******). Then we sat and talked for awhile and I head homë."

"Good if you're being honest but if you're not then I curse you.. If you're not guilty, you won't think about the curse at all.." I said clearly and then switched my phone to "offline" mode.

At 3am in the morning BFF met me,crying and told me I should meet him and he will tell me everything. She promised she'll be by my side.. So I decided to meet him with a positive thinking.

At last, we broke off. After 1 year 2 days..

Things that I found out are:-
* He cheated
* He lied to me over and over again(even during apologising for lying to me)
* He did things with the girl which MAJORITY of teenage couples do nowadays.
and there's a long more list to go..but I chose to cover his dignity, some..

Whatever I blog, It's about me. This is my account and whoever dislike or disapproves, Get The Hell Out of Here. Thank you.

2010-09-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

Single Mingle Jingle!
back to jiwangg songs..

apit-Cintaku Dipermainkan

2010-08-17T15:36:00.000-07:00

2010-08-17T12:47:00.001-07:00

Tears dripping as soon as i read it .

2010-08-17T12:33:00.000-07:00

2010-08-16T23:27:00.000-07:00

You could have just told me.
Not by blogging and update your accounts(eg. facebook)
Letting other people know about your feelings,neglecting about mine
Maybe,what you've said is true.
Things change.people change
You're no longer the person i've known for so long..
You've no longer understands me..
No longer knows the real me..
No longer there when i needed you most.
No longer fight for our friendship.
IT'S NO LONGER YOU! (cries)

I know you miss me,i know miss us.
But doesnt mean you have to embarrass me by posting of what you feel,
Then,others questioned me,

"Are you okay?"
"What happen between you and (insertnamehere)?"
"Why she post like that?"
"Then what did you do?"
" Be patience.."
You've disappoint me enough(cries!)
Be honest,
If you miss me BUT you're giving me cold shoulders,then,THANK YOU.
If not,STOP doing it.

p/s: Why is it always me?pissed off.

stuck in my mind

2010-08-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

For those who don't know me, I can get a bit crazy
Have to get my way, 24 hours a day
'Cause I'm hot like that
Every guy everywhere just gives me mad attention
Like I'm under inspection, I always get the 10s
'Cause I'm built like that

I go through guys like money flyin' out their hands
They try to change me but they realize they can't
And every tomorrow is a day I never planned
If you're gonna be my man, understand

[Chorus]
I can't be tamed, I can't be saved
I can't be blamed, I can't, can't
I can't be tamed, I can't be changed
I can't be saved, I can't be (can't be)
I can't be tamed

If I see my reflectiona bout my intentions
I'll tell ya I'm not here to sell ya
Or tell ya to get to hell
I'm like a puzzle but all of my pieces are jagged
If you can understand this, we can make some magic
I'm on like that

I wanna fly I wanna drive I wanna go
I wanna be a part of something I don't know
And if you try to hold me back I might explode
Baby by now you should know

[Chorus]
I can't be tamed, I can't be saved
I can't be blamed, I can't, can't
I can't be tamed, I can't be changed
I can't be saved, I can't be (can't be)
I can't be tamed

I'm not a trick you play, I ride a different way
I'm not a mistake, I'm not a fake, It's set in my DNA
Don't change me (x4)
(I can't be tamed)

I wanna fly I wanna drive I wanna go
I wanna be a part of something I don’t know
And if you try to hold me back I might explode
Baby by now you should know

[Chorus]
I can't be tamed, I can't be saved
I can't be blamed, I can't, can't
I can't be tamed, I can't be changed
I can't be saved, I can't be (can't be)
I can't be tamed

2010-07-25T06:52:00.000-07:00

Be happy w/o me .
ENJOY~

2010-07-24T00:33:00.000-07:00

NURSES' DAY CELEBRATION WAS A BLAST!!
happy nurses' day and 1st August to everyone!!

SAY; "whatever you like~ !!"

2010-07-17T02:09:00.000-07:00

YOU CALL OTHER PEOPLE A LIAR
BUT YOU,YOURSELF IS
A LIAR!

2010-07-17T00:32:00.000-07:00

" Why do you have to lie for having other plans?"
"What kind of friend are you??"

Yesterday,16th july 2010 was supposed to be girls outing.
At last,only me and neecha attended.
We are the one who have been accused for not giving effort.
But in the end, we are the one who've been cheated and lied.
Just because somene got plans with(sheknowwho!)
No wonder this someone didnt answer my calls or reply my msgs.
Why?feeling guilty?ohmy~
the most shocking thing is...
Someone used my birthday as an excused so that we can postpone the date.
How could you!
You're just being selfish!
If I dont feel like meeting you at your work place,yesterday,
i think i will be the stupid-est FRIEND you've ever met.

YOU call yourself,a FRIEND?GOOD FRIEND?BEST FRIEND?OR AN ACTRESS?
Really disappoint me.ALOT!
I cant imagine how you've got the cheek to lie to us.

"Hidop berdua pon tak mati uhh!"

Celebrated Dilah's LEGAL birthday.
a tiring,rushing yet happy day! :))

2010-06-02T07:38:00.000-07:00

SWEETHEART!
i wanna apologise for everything..
i want us to forgive one another and forget about the ugly scene.
i just MISS you badly~
* Sobx.

i take back my words alright?
i just realised that i've made a very quick decision~
and never think twice.
im sorry~
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
MMMUAHH!!

Emotional Breakdown

2010-06-01T05:32:00.000-07:00

Where are all the peaceful moments that we had last time?
Where's the love that we used to have have?

you know how much i love you and i'll try my best to make you feel satisfied.
But, there's a limit to it.
You can't always expect me to be the way you always want me to be..
And, every sentence that came out from my mouth..
You will twist my words and get the wrong idea of what im trying to say.

Sometimes i dont know what are we anymore.

Everything i do, doesn't seem to right despite any situations.
Everytime you make mistakes, i will correct you..
But in the end, i'll still be at fault.

Forget it, i know my mistakes but at least i realised it.
i know what are the promises we made.
i know mine too.

im speechless everytime this happens..
im sorry
sigh*

2010-04-21T08:37:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i update my blog.
i've been too busy with school, work and love.
i only managed to check facebook after school/work
then i have to rush to meet my babyGANYOT.

speaking of school, i managed to pass my exams
and it's my luck for not repeating my module. (alhamdulillah~)
Now,im having my 2nd last attachment at nuh, imh and kk.
im quite disappointed because this time my pay will be lesser than usual.
i wont be paid for sim trainings(2 days), kk(2 weeks),PH(1day) and imh(2 weeks)
sad face :((((
im still figuring out on what bus or mrt that goes to imh,
where's the nearest and the fastest way and more.

i did not get enough sleep everyday.
after work,i take my shower,sleep for 1 hour.
meet baby..and will be back home around 11.
if baby can sleep,i will get to sleep at 12+ or 1.
if not, every hour he will call me,just to talk on the phone.
guess what?
i have to wake up at 4.30 okay??
but usually,i wake up at 5.45 and need to rush(am shifts)

me and baby?
too many misunderstandings and problematic
but we keep trying our best to solve the problems.
still going strong and next monday(260410), is our 7th months together.
im pm shift(1pm-9pm), baby working till 11pm.
what a day~!
it's okay, we have to sacrifice right?
i love him so much!!
and i really hope he appreciates those little things that i do.

- Shaza La Doinkks

2010-02-23T02:37:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

im bored!i've got 2 days of mc as my foot got swollen.
i have to cut down on my days of mc.
i dowan to retake my module.
its f-ing stressful you know?
in 2.1, students been falling sick,A LOT!

cant wait for c.p
then,i'll cant wait for 2.2
blablabla..

planning to be a nurse??
hrmm...
not sure yet..
i still wanna study different courses,different subjects..
i hope i can do that..?

OH,its time for my med.
see you!

2010-02-07T05:42:00.000-08:00

HELLO!
im so happy today you know!
why??
because.. its been a long time since i went out with LOVE.
we had a great time together.
jokes,laughters,hugs&&kisses.
im so loving it.

early in the morning,i tot its going to be the same ordinary day
where both of us meet each other at my neighbourhood area.
just sitting on the bench,talking.
hrmms.
BUT,both suggested to catch a movie at vivo.
sadly,"toothfairy" starts a 6.40pm.
love got to rush for work.
plan cancelled.
we ate at LJS.
so funny.
both lazy to buy food.
arguedXD!
love gave up at last and bought the food.

then,love wanted to treat me Ben&Jerry so he asked me to buy.
i didnt want to.
love said "if you dont buy,i'll buy it for myself.hmph!"
so he ordered large cup for himself,not noticing that he didnt have enough cash.
he gave me his cheekySMILE.
"sayaaaang,share2 with me can..?hehehe."
both of us giggled and i paid for the remaining.
at the end of the day,i realised that this is the moment that i've been waiting for.
I LOVE MY BABYBOY SO MUCH!
Shaza Ft. Fiqqy

p/s: still waiting for my gift.hehehe

2010-02-03T20:53:00.000-08:00

come on la kiddokia.
seme orang bersalah wat?
kalau betol kiddo malas nak layan ni seme,
asal kiddo sanggop blog pasal ni seme?
kite pernah bersatu tapi disebabkan satu kesalahan seme berpecah.
ni antare korang berdua.
shaz and ain takde side sape2.
okehh?

since this story da spread to banyak org,we got no choice but to bersuare.
kalau betol kiddo nak talk2 about this, kenape kiddo tanak je tanye kite?
lagipon kiddo sendiri ckp bobal depan2.

yelah,since kite pernah bersatu.
kite dah kenal satu-satunye perangai kan?
year 1 dah pernah terjadi,year 2 pon same?

takde gune nye kiddo nak diam2 kat skola kalau kiddo tak tenteram.
kalau kiddo tak blog pasal ni seme,shaz tak pikir bende ni ley terjadi.
kiddo pikir shaz & ain suke tengok korang gini??

kiddo api,ika pon api.
then sape yang nak jadi air??
padahal perkare ni kecik tapi asal kenape nak besar-besarkan?

skg kiddo da blog psl ni..and kiddo malas nak bobal pasal ni?
i've heard you saying it a lot of time tau.

oh yah by the way,asal kiddo nak bilang orang pasal 1.1 ehk..?
perkare lalu sia..
and ade ape kene mengene dengan skarang..???

2010-02-03T02:36:00.000-08:00

Psssssssst, IM BACK!!(haha)
sorry everyone for not updating....
been busy with school's tight schedules...

alaa.. feeling2 nak update jekks.
so shaza update a bit okehhh?
hee~love korang!
shaz talk in malay tau.
boring la bobal english..
okehokeh.

shaz still with fiQQy BamBam.
nak masok 5 Bulan..
5 bulan jekk..bukan lame kankankan?
hee~
hidop shaz banyak da berubah...
dari sekolah ke perhubungan ke rumah..
stress tau!
shaz asyik sakeeeeeeyyt jekk.
takpe laarh, shaz bersyukor dapat hidop(alhamdulillah)

Oh yah,oh yah!
shaz nak bilang korang something..
tapi kan,shaz rase pelik laaa...
cube korang pahamkan kay?

watak:
-A18
-B18
-C1&2

[A18 cakap B18 immature tapi A18 sendiri yang immature]

[A18 staring2 kawan2 B18,bukankah itu TAK MASOK AKAL??]

setahu shaz,kalau A18 ade hal nan B18,akan ditetapkan untok tidak menghiraukan perbuatan B18 kalau nak berbicara tentang " kematangan ".
lebih-lebih lagi biler part, A18 ni..
1)yang buat salah- sanggop bermusuh demi kepentingan diri sendiri
2)panggil B18 "immature"- padahal sendiri yang bilang2 sahabat-handainya,pasangannya
(nak besar-besarkan cerita)
3)cakap zaman da abes- padahal sendiri yang bobal fana2(hrrm?)
4)suro cermin B18 sendiri- orang kate; "mengata dulang oooi!"
5)staring2 B18,C1&2- for goodness sake, kate malas layan ni seme??lagipon asal A18 nak masok campor C1&2?

PELIK KAN??what to do, da memang tengah terjadi pon sekarang...

dah la,shaz nak go now.
take care.
kalau nak tau lagi pasal shaz nye life, apa nak tau thru blog?
kata bobal depan-depan?
haha.
okehh2??
see you soon tau!
tsktsktsk~

p/s: jgn lah nak bingit2 ngan shaz pasal sendiri yang buat shaz update bergini yerr.
kalau sesiapa yang tersinggung atau terase, sila tinggalkan name yang benar di kotak "tagboard" shaz. jangan segan-silu untuk berjumpa dengan shaz.
"SELAMAT MAJU JAYA" =D

2009-12-17T06:50:00.000-08:00

watched with SsssHaFiiiQ.

wacthed it with best friend, HaaKkiiMaaaH! XD

2009-12-17T06:24:00.000-08:00

"Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving."

its been a long week for me and love.
we had a great time spending together.
those moments fulled with enjoyment, laughter and entertainments
but, something painful stopped us from continuing..
however, we managed to overcome ourselves
after an hour of silence accompanied by aniq's cute little voice.

"Pains of love be sweeter far
Than any other pleasures are"

i was afraid of whats going to happen next.
but his ever positive comments and advices reminds me of how much he loves me.

thank you for loving me.
thank you for not letting those words from destroying our relationship.
thank you for everything.
all your sacrifices will be appreciated.

i cant wait for tomorrow where i can spend time with you again,
letting go all the pain.

im sorry for everything.

HOME ALONE II

2009-12-12T00:25:00.000-08:00

Baby boy's away for three days and will be home on Monday.

I'm left with Tigger, alone.
Baby & i exchanged Tigger and Pooh to remind ourselves to each other.
Other than that, a song too.
" Here Without You- 3 Doors Down "
Yes, i'm listening to it now =D
and i admit that i'm in love with the song.
I'm still waiting for his return..
and to watch movie with him.
I hope he's enjoying with his family&relatives.
I miss him so much!
sadness :((

So baby, Tigger && I watched movie marathon at home.
We watched " The Sweetest Thing, Hancock, Clueless etc. "
Smile baby, smile! =DD

By the way,
while you're away, i spend time with best friend, Kim.

I got to go for now, doing housework.
2 more days, baby...
i love you!

2009-11-28T00:14:00.000-08:00

KECOHH mann..
i'll update..i'll update..haiya..

im left with 2 more weeks of attachment and then year 2!!
oh yah btw, SAELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIM.
nothing much happening around me..
so far,i've been spending time with my one and only,SHAFIQ.
sometimes neecha and dan hang out with us too.
speaking of baby, we celebrated our 2 monthsary on the 24th nov.
enjoyed spending time with him
unfortunately, on the 26th, theres misunderstanding btween both of us.
gladly we solve things out the next day.

i miss bestie.i miss going out with her.
two more weeks okay baby?then we'll go shopping?
my pay will be on 12th dec so yeah,after that okay?

i wanna take shower now and then go to sleep.
so tired!
bye-bye

My First Cousin's Outing

2009-10-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

I had a wonderful time spending time with my cousins!
Well,none is single okay and im the youngest, ehem*!
firstly, i wanna apologise for not having any pictures with me.
all pictures are with THEM!
okay,let's start...

We met at Yuhua Village,3pm.picture taken.
Waited for uncle to pass us the car key and off to fetch abg boy.
Reached Sentosa at about 5+.
pictures taken.

bought tickets for skyride&luge.
$11 each.
im the first!
OH YES!
driver without any licence.
minah drift!HAHAHA

after that,we had a quick break and started walking to find . .
Desperados.

On our way there at 7pm, we came across the Spooktacular.
SCARY!!
Our heart pounds 10X faster.
it was quite an interesting place anyway.
i've churros for myself,delicious!

At last, we reached to our destination.
We played Desperados.
$12 each.
fun fun fun.

the last place we visited was Mr. Teh Tarik at Jurong West. .
to eat SEAFOOD!!
love it, hingga menjilat jari, you!!

before i called it a day, babyboy fetched me.
Accompanied baby to paste stickers for Dean's bike.
reached home at 1.30am.
that's all!

Thanks for the day to cousins and siblings!!
and lastly, I LOVE YOU SHAFIQ!!

oh yah, today Shaz[a]Fiq's 1st MONTHSARY!!
so fast seyy...

2009-10-14T08:55:00.000-07:00

its okay, do whatever you wanna do, say whatever you wanna say. i dun wanna say no more. you told me it's over but then you . ...

what's the point of settling this shit when it will come back to square one?

well, i got nothing else to say and i wont do anything to make myself feel satisfied.
you're gone now.
love said, " losing a friend is much more painful than to lose a girlfriend " ,
yes,i agreed with love.

i cant believe that a "friend" will do such things to * someone *
forget it, i know WE are no longer joining in this SHITS.
WE are happy now.
dont like, WE'll buzzed off like how YOU?, THEM? wanted.

2009-10-08T09:30:00.000-07:00

2009-09-29T10:32:00.000-07:00

after a year & one month single, finally, it's over!
to those around me who kept asking me why him, here's the answer..

"i dun know why i chose him. it's the feelings that grows in me.
if you ever think that i've chosen the wrong person bcoz u care,
i'll thank you but im sorry,i have to make some mistakes in order to learn,right?
oh yes, i think i know what u mean by "i knw something that u dont know"
ahaa, he told me before.well, everyone makes mistakes,right?
* smile!

2009-09-09T09:52:00.001-07:00

BOREDOM STRIKES,AGAIN!

2009-09-08T10:34:00.000-07:00

I wanna wish KHARI BIN KAMSANI,happy legal birthday.
sorry for the late update.

2009-09-07T02:35:00.000-07:00

APOLOGISED FOR THE RECENT POST PEEPS!

had my clinical nursing exam today.
the paper was quite easy..
easier than the previous papers!
i hope i get a better marks this time.

tommorrow is behaviour science.
need to start brainstorming the topics now.
theory,my weakest subject.
biology and behaviour science.urgh!
btw,wish me luck!

2009-09-05T23:40:00.000-07:00

DON'T PUSH YOUR LUCK!

stop treating me like a princess because it makes me puke.
am not the girl who loves the romance and likes things that are romantic.
please,that's not me.
so DON'T.

by me treating you good doesn't mean you can push your luck further
because..

you are my friend.
i don't wanna embarrass you.
i hate it when it comes to you,EMOTIONAL.

i've lost my Mr. Companion so please don't make me hate you even more.
stop spreading the plans that you have to everyone and expect it to be SWEET.
am not MONEYface so don't bother telling me about $$.
stop wasting $$ for me.
i don't want people going around gossiping about us even if it's not the truth.

im warning you,STOP it before i BURST!
just don't test me.

2009-09-04T02:02:00.000-07:00

hello, im bored here.
i want to go out but mum,arghhh!
its very irritating when it comes to siblings out to work and left u,urself alone with parents
i need to do everything!
work,scoldings etc.
i hate it!
i,myself wants to enjoy my teenage life.
its like not fair okay.
my sisters can but not me??

"kau brani luar niari,jgn harap aku nak maafkan kau"

whats the meaning of this??
im starting to hate everyone in my house but i cant do anything.
they are still my family.

fine,i'll stop here.
mum starts her nagging.
like,SHUDDAP la!
urgh!

2009-09-03T06:00:00.000-07:00

hey you!yes you!
i want to tell you something.
yesterday,i had my break fast at Seoul Garden,Tampines with yan.

well,it started of at simei mrt, 4pm.
didnt do much as the weather was freaking warm,
so,we chilled at nearby blks.
supposingly, both of us fasted but in between,we smoke and drink.
hot weather with hot.
dry throat**
we got reasons okay.
yan got blood taken at the check-up
as for me,whatelse right?

waited till 7pm and we proceed to seoul garden.
as i've promised yan that he will regret eating with me,
he agreed after walking out of seoul garden.HAHAHA.
because i wont stop eating and give him more and more food to eat.
2hrs of dinner for only 2 pax.

later,we met kim,neecha and dan.
a favour from me to neecha.
i-know-u-know girl.
XD

for today,school was okay.
early in the morning we visited the army 2009 open house at pasir laba.
had some great time at there.
came back to school and been forced to march toward PM1 lesson.
was so sleepy so i slept for a few minutes.
then,to CN lesson and b4 ending,we did our spring cleaning together.

went hme with kay,dilah,aqilah,nurul n her boifie.
had endless laughters and i felt asleep after entertaining them.
tired okayy!
break fast at imm,long john.
pitied dilah,nobody's at home.
thanks dilah.
i-know-u-know gal.

i'll end here.
tmr going out with sec friends.
pictures will be uploading...SOON!
take care.

2009-08-31T11:02:00.000-07:00

okay fine...i'll update maybe a lil bit about my recent events.
i had fun time spending with my new friends,classmates and not to forget the old ones too.

firstly,yes,i admit that its been ages since i "lepak" with my brother toh guan.
i miss them so much.
im sorry if i never spend time with you guys like i always do.

secondly,i have great time spending with the two bestfriends.
our bestfriends' outing was superDOOPER memorable
eventhough we dun haf much plan during the outings.
after outings,we will sit and share problems with each others before we call it a day.
okay la,not bad sharing my experiences with them.
especially yan,its good to see him change for the better.
thank you for accepting my advices,fuhh!
chucks,well thanks for the sweet post.
i really appreciate it.
kim bby,i've realised that every bestfriends' outing make us closer.
after a long time not getting to spend with u dat much..
at last,we're as close as secondary times..
i love you kim!

okay,bestfriend is bugging me to send her pictures that i owe her.
like,SHUDDUP!!
hahaha,im tired right..?
M.N.L =DD

uploading some pictures here.
kim,want more?
one day,i'll bring my usb to ur crib den...
"NAAAH!AMEK KAU!!"
XD!

my eyes are half open now.
i guess i'll end here.good night!

2009-08-31T10:30:00.000-07:00

im sorry people for not updating..
i cant remember what happened but in-case u all want to know,
just read kim's and chuck's blog will do..

2009-08-22T02:45:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating for quite a long time.
im too busy with stuffs.
i will update more when theres time.

for now,what's important is my parents' health!!
my daddy was admitted to nuh on thursday morning.
im freaking worried for him,okay.
eventhough i may not show him that i love him,deep inside..i love him!
i dun haf much time to spend with my family members bcoz of school's heavy projects.
and i dun get good sleep either.

i visited my dad yesterday.
he's having a D1-D2 stomach ulcer and complaining of back pain.
damn worried!
today mommy is sick too!
and im left alone to take care of mommy.
sisters are working..will be home till late.
i cant visit daddy today because just now,i haf to rush from my place to granny's.
just to take mommy's medicines.
now is 6.10pm.
if i visit daddy,i got no enough time to actually go home
and prepare mommy & me food for breaking fast later.

before im off to prepare food,
i just want to thanks to my new friends for the listening ears yest.
and thanks for the treat too.
i dun blog for any other purposes like asking for sympathy.
but just a place to let my feelings out.
hmm,everything happen unexpectedly.
weekdays,granny's staying over at my place.
how am i going to handle my school,family and friends problem??
the turning of my life is way too tough for me to handle,ALONE..
hais,next,financial.
i cant just ask mommy for $$$..
i need to find $$ but obviously i cant work,need to take care of mommy,daddy & granny.
and i cant just borrowed $$ from friends..
that's so embarrassing...hais
when can my both sisters be free to give me a hand...???
when???urgh!
whatever it is,i'll haf to pay more attention to my family n studies.
okayy..i'll end here for now.

2009-08-03T06:38:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the late updates.
been busy with school and stuffs.

first of all..
i want to thank those who wishes me happy birthday.
really appreciated it even when i haf to spend my birthday in school,
STUDYING~!

here's are some of the pix "we" took..
from lastest..
vivo outs with girlfriends

Sat. with ex-boyfriend,bestfriend.
wan's crib for kenduri at night.
birthday gifts from kim.
birthday treats from ex-boyfriend.

after craving for durian for quite sometime,
bestfriend's treat!wee~!thanks so much!
sun. to celebrate iman's 4th birthday.

that's all folk.
im knocking off soon.
takecare!

2009-07-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

SICK O ALERT!!
im so weak nowadays.
almost fainted in school?
keep shivering.
dry cough,migraine
and worst,asthma ATTACK!
damn,i hate it when it comes to asthma attack.
haiyo..
didnt attend sch today.
supposed to be late for school but half way at bedok..
i shivered and my body was so weak so decided to go to poly. to take mc.
ain bby was sick too & she too last minute didnt attend school.
was all the way with her just now.
after seeing the doctor,we went to eat at bedok interchange.
not to forget,our medicine.bluek!!
since we're near to school,we decided to drop by n passed kiddo our bby pix.
and collect project $$.
after that we went straight home.
the medicine made both of us fly!!
damn!how i wish not to eat b4 i reach home just now.
like one madness girl walking.
confused*?
hmm,now im sitting ere,forcing myself to type.
no strength!!
betta stop here.
takcere!

2009-07-12T09:16:00.000-07:00

`120709~

ngok orang blakang tu
menyebok!!

the day with the 2 siblings.

2009-07-11T01:51:00.000-07:00

well,today i didnt go work which cause my mom to be disappointed.
mommy, im sorry.im just too tired with school thingy and i nid a "BREAK"!
but it hurts me when u kip saying..

" YELAH,DA KAYA KAN??HIDOP DA SENANG KAN??
BAIK, I WONT WITHDRAW UR $$!! "

and you gave me a (sorry to say)fcuked up face and walk out of the house.
mommy,my $$ is all with you.
and im currently broke, paying for my books using my pocket $$.
do you know why i didnt asked $$ for the books??
because mommy, it actually embarrassed me to keep asking for $$.
im crying typing out thIs post**
please mommy, when will you actually understand me,your DAUGHTER??hais.

the weather also saddens me because i cant go out to relax myself..
so i decided to do my revision n re-write my notes for Clinical Nursing.
and now, im here updating my blog while listening to music.
im starving, locking myself in my room.
i duwan you to see me crying..
i know im at fault.

"I SORRY,MOMMY..!"hais.

2009-07-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

2009-07-10T03:13:00.000-07:00

The Four of Us.

girls, eventhough we sometimes had arguments i wanna let u know that i love you 3 still okay?
we joke, we quarrell, we laugh && the day ends with warm hugs from u..
i enjoyed everytime we get together like we do now in sch.
i dont know why i suddenly felt like typing this out.
and i actually cannot believe that our friendship is already 7 months 10 days old.
i hope our FRIENDSHIP will last eternity.
thank you, girls, for everything.ily! <33

2009-07-07T07:55:00.000-07:00

HELLO=D
this are some of the pictures i took this week.
i got to spend time with my GFs almost everyday.
especially my IKA bby,KIDDO bby & AIN bby.
not to forget my only bff too,KIM
&& her classmates<33!
ooh,i love them soo much!!

Amsyar has gone to N.S
gonna mis him!!

its THEM during our B.E.H lesson

during our MOTIVATION workshop.
psst,look at ika.she's falling asleep!
CUTE kaaan??!

2009-07-05T06:34:00.000-07:00

webcam with rahman.

and ika.

2009-07-04T06:34:00.000-07:00

hello.
i overslept this morning so i didnt go work today.
no CASH!cant go out to town with bby.
but we managed to spend time together.
ate at Bagus .
ain ate n. goreng.
i ate wanton soup.
proceed to wan's house and chilled with the rest.
at night,watch them play takraw.
n now,im here updating,waiting for my daddy to fetch me go rewang..
well,got to go..
bubbye!

2009-07-03T10:22:00.000-07:00

friday.
looooooooooong day.
met amsyar at his cirb after work.
then amsyar went out with fam. so i met wan..
came pipit n ain...
terserempak with dino && hisyam.(misses *)
along came fanni..
chilled for a while then left me,wan n ain.
ate at mcD then meet the rest again..
lastly we ended at Puaka,watching bdk2 blakang play takraw.
and now,im here updating becoz my lovely BFF asked me to..
i updated already,okay...?
hehe.
im soooo sleeeeeeeepy!!
good night!

2009-07-03T09:55:00.000-07:00

was on monday.

on tuesday.

on wednesday.

on thursday.

2009-06-28T11:00:00.001-07:00

E WONT LET ME SLEEP!!!
ARGH!!

2009-06-28T02:40:00.000-07:00

today at 7pm met INTANbby at bukit batok.
because i asked her to accompany me go eat at McDonald.
then got this one guy nk no. intan but she's engaged then he asked for mine.
like "EEEWK,tak dapat satu abeh nak agi satu.DESPERATE pe??"
after that we lepak at pondok depan bukit view sec.
soooo missing secondary school days...hais

i proceed to toh guan at 10+
i meet the rest and myBFF.
most of us were like playing around with our new HPs.
1 side are all the normal phone but another are those who are using TouchScreen.
hahaha.didnt realised it in the ferst place.
when home at 12am and now,infront of my lappie updating my post.
betta go now...
people are waiting to chat with me...
chaos*

2009-06-26T08:19:00.000-07:00

I GOT NEW HANDPHONE BEBEH!
" samsung pixon " worth $321.
went JP to buy with mummy,kak mar, abg shahril && raiyan aniQ.
after that ate at Sakura restaurant.

i love you!!

2009-06-25T02:59:00.000-07:00

HELLO.sorry for the long update.
been busy this week.
anyway, last tuesday on 23 june 2oo9, i met my girlfriends, kym & naz after work.
we ate BK at toa payoh hub for dinner before we're going to watch live anugerah.

at Mediacorp,while waiting for the rest of supporters, guess who i met??IKAitek la seyy!
rinduu bangaaaat sama dia!!hug&kissestoher*
went for smoky2 first then aru dapat masok but we seperated with ikabby.
oh yah,i forgot.im supporting,CATTY!!
once the show end,we straight away walk towards the bus stop.
we didnt get to take pix with the contestants & celebrities because we're rushing home.

2009-06-20T07:39:00.000-07:00

look at that picture above*
tell me how is this related to your daily life?

ups and downs of the moving path of life.

all the best in everything you do,peeps!
=DD

2009-06-18T10:01:00.000-07:00

disappointed in you.
aku tak perna benarkan kau lupekan aku ataupon mereka.
aku kenal kau da lame.
jadi kau tak perlu nak pk2 untuk lepaskan persahabatan kite semue.
"brani cakap tapi tk sampai ati nk uat"
aku tau syar.

now,after the talk,you're having second thoughts about leaving us kaaan?
especially me kan???
pasal ape syar??
kite da terlalu rapat.
and and you're having lots and lots of problems thats why you're thinking of...
STUPID BULLSHIT QUESTIONS&ANSWERS.
its good that you realised that how important our friendship is for me.
and what did you do?
u apologised to me right?
because of what syar??
cause you know that even you're not contacting me,YOU still msg me right??

you can live independently but at certain times you'll need help.
if not your family members, your true friends do.
from the start i tell you, "through ups and downs; through thick and thin, TOGETHER!"

p/s: i'll remember your words, amsyar.

2009-06-17T04:29:00.000-07:00

to nabsteksgems: hey bitch, if you're wanna bitch around then just be one but please, stop going around,trying to be an attention seeker. so pathetic! and and, dun prasan can? he's just sending u, so what? and what the meaning of u going around telling ppl not to spread rumours around when you, urself purposely tell everyone?? WHATEVER! hahaha. seriously man.. that guy is ATTACHED?! and and, can see that every guys u flirt around. so the memalukan you knw? dun act wild and easygoing when u are not one. and being a POSER will ya?? irritating tau tak!

2009-06-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

I'M SO IN LOVE WITH MY BESTEST FRIEND,HAKIMAH!

my saturday was superENJOYABLE!i had endless laugh with my BFF & love ones. we started out at vivo where we both ate at LJS with naz & amsyar while wan & ain ate at banquet(phff,dorg tk jiwe!=X). den we headed to henderson waves & then to hort park. it was damn tiring,okay but we did lots of silly things.(am so loving this part!* hard to explain *)

while waiting for bus 166 to dover, me & BFF did all kinds of stupid things like rasuk-ing, dancing & lots more!FUNFUNFUN. wan & ain were seperated with us at dover. BFF & i decided to accompany amsyar to send naz home. pity him, he supposed to ask naz something but he couldnt. after that we headed to jurong east int. & met up wan to play bowling at chevron. again,WALK! * leg[S]CREAMING *

this girl here, my BFF, played better than me eventhough the rolling of bowling balls were like damn slow! phff! HAHAHA. during our game, i got a msg from K so we decided to meet him after bowling to lepak. me & BFF were about to leave that place until i decided to make crushed paper balls to play sepak takraw,volleyball & soccer. this part very funny to see my dearest BFF trying her best to pass the balls to me.(amsyar & K were laughing their asses OUT! XD!) out of no where, 2 handsome policemen came and screen us.* melting *

" wahh, pompan maen takraw?saye pikir lelaki je maen takraw. "
" asal pulak pompan maen takraw, lelaki yang dudok? HAHA "

and and guess what??one of them kan, budak nanyang takraw player,wth!
PAISEY SIA!

after along day, BFF & i headed to my crib.BFF slept over at my crib.she was mengigau-ing!!
damn funny i tell you!! HAHAHA.

okay,i'm done for now.
i'm so loving 130609.
the MOST funniest & embarassing day EVER!

2009-06-11T04:56:00.000-07:00

11/06/2oo9

after work,i rushed back home.
i cooked ayam mask merah for amsyar & kai.
not only that, i washed n fold clothes, vacuum & clean the house.
didnt managed to get some rest but its quite worth it because they finished all the lauk & rice.
im happy tau coz theres people who willing to eat with me at home.
=DD

till here then.
takecare.

p/s: sorry peeps,i need to settle some stuffs before i can really update my blog.
i apologised once again.

2009-06-06T09:39:00.000-07:00

as i promised.
updated.
=DD

2009-06-05T08:58:00.000-07:00

IM SO F-ING MISS THE OLD BROTHER TOH GUAN!!

what happened to all of us here?
why each and everyone of us have changed?
why must u be so aggressive or being f-ing so stubborn??
why must u change to an immature,selfish act while ur age is getting older a day?
seriously,ur 6 years of friendship with someone who is really close to you,
RUINED!
i just simply dont understand why this is happening to BTGs.
"he's" been blaming himself since day ONE and will always be the first one to apologise.
what else do YOU want from him??
i had enough seeing HIM crying each and every DAY!
and all because of YOU & US!
when he kept something away from u,u fcuk-ed him upside down.
BUT when the next time he told u the truth,u simply broke friendship with HYM!
not only HYM but another who's been so damn close to YOU!
what's the meaning of u doing this to THEM?
ur own BLOODbrother who plan an outing to celebrate with u before ur NS.
but but,u didnt wanna go just bcoz of THEM?wth!
please la,stop all this "merepek-ness" can??
u guys are like REAL brothers okay.
as in what real brothers do!
it really hurts me seeing u guys like this especially when im the only gal here.
please...im begging YOU!!!
im crying while typing this post.
how i wish we're back together with all those LAUGHTERS we had last time..hmph...

2009-06-02T09:17:00.000-07:00

hello.
just a quick update okay?
sunday- met my GFs at yew tee to play volleyball.
amsyar and siti were there too.
kim & siti were tudying while me,hubby & naz played volleyball.
ard 7.25, went to naz's crib to watch CAMP ROCK.
pitied amsyar,he went home.
at night met bdk2 court blkg...
mon- all the at home after work.
so tired n lazy to go out n meet the rest.
tues- took power nap den met amsyar n he went hme.
met KIMbby and ate at KFC as i've been craving for it for abt 1 1/2 weeks.
came to court dpn to meet the rest and went hme,on9.

gotta sleep nw,very tired.
sorry.gd night!

2009-05-30T00:11:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
today i am not going out i guess?
last few days was sooo busy till i only got 4hrs ouf sleep everyday.
not enough rest.my legs aches a lot!
i really need a break so i didnt help my momma kat kedai this morning.
seriously,kaki mcm nk tercabot tau!

about yesterday,after work straight away go home and washed up.
met amsyarHUBBY and nazBBY to vivo.
follow my hubby to buy clothes at ZARA but tk jadi,dier cerewet nak mampos!
so we windowshopped first.
he wanna belt la,shirt,pants...,watch, and more!!
especially adidas wallet which he wants the white one but the white out of stock!
hahahaha!pity hym.
end up he bought a shirt at river island.
and silently,he bought nazBBY the adidas wallet but blue colour.
its for her advanced birthday gift.
its okay,i got mine next week okay!
betta one!!CASH worth $100.
hahahaha!
after sending nazBBY home,we lepak-ed with kaiSAMPAN at pondok near my house.
went home at around 1am.

okay dearest,i got to go now..gotta bath.
my stomach is feasting,tau?!
bye2 love u muah!

2009-05-25T09:35:00.000-07:00

ZAI CLOWN GILER!!ahahahahaha!

2009-05-25T09:22:00.000-07:00

MY NEW HUBBY(Laughing My Ass Out!)
240509

2009-05-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

230509~ Stressing day!!

alright, actually some things not right about BTG's friendship.
and im always in the middle person.
so stressFUL and i actually cried with amsyar.
i cant see all of us like this.
its like we're like siblings already and all of us were like strangers this week.
after confronting amsyar, i went to meet ain bby.
went to pasar malam & IMM just to buy food for me to eat as much as i want.
still stress though.
this is what i usually do if im stress,EAT!
so at IMM, i dared ain to go to spa fish with me(for friedship)hehs!
so she went.
CURIOUS,LAUGHTER & BEAUTY.hahaha
after that we went to court to see them play takraw.
its good to see that everyone's back to normal.
and and and, all of them already confessed to each other.
so that's a good news.
now, im here updating while they are all on the way to play BOWLING.(sobx*)
its okay. as long as our friendship last, i will still keep smilling.
LOVE U ALL, my abang2 takraw(s).
4 years of friendship.
still counting...

2009-05-20T08:18:00.000-07:00

sayang-sayang,i will not be updating blog on weekdays okay?
really busy && i need a lot of rest.

p/s: sorry for the inconvenience.

2009-05-17T06:11:00.000-07:00

hello!
i break record tau!!
one whole day stayed at home!
but, soo boring!
all i did was surfing net, fold clothes, vacuum house && cook,ALONE.
while my momma sleeping.
seriously,damn bored.
im supposed to turun takraw at yuhua side, but im too lazy to walk that far.
tomorrow starts my attachment,AGAIN.
im gonna start busy, and theres not enough time to update a new post for all of you.
sorry yar aite,peepos?
love you alway!muacks!

p/s: (to someone)please baby,dun force us to go.we're not "world".we hope you understand.

2009-05-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

10o5o9- endless laugh them.

p/s: no pictures taken for wan's bbQ pit(sorry!)
to this special someone, u come & go whenever you want.
i feel like an IDOIT when you make me fall in love with you again & again.
its easy to find a guy like you but why is it so difficult to ignore those feelings towards you?
"BENCI TAPI SAYANG, why??
everyone loves to see us to be together but i wonder why we cant make it happen?
oh LOVE,why must you choose him??
whats so special about HIM???
we might be TTM but seriously we dun look like TTM but more!
i just need to know the truth, what exactly do you want from ME??
im begging you to stop doing this to me.
im still hoping....

okay lah,its 1.22am...i gotta sleep now.goodnight.

2009-05-15T09:14:00.000-07:00

HALLO!!.
im tired so i think i'll just summarise everything.
today supposed to go out with amsyar to JP but in the end tak jadi.
amsyar gi sorg.bustard kaaan??
haha
anyway,lepak at wan's crib,eat,sleep.
joke around..
then at night watch them play takraw.
after tat followed amsyar to court blkg to meet the other peepos
they were playing "streetpoker" so i gotta sit somewhere else.
because they haf to strip off their clothes if they lose.
DARN!i miss it!!
HAHAHAHA.
forget it la.
hmm,is that all?
i think so.
gotta chao nw.
lots off things to do..

2009-05-11T23:16:00.000-07:00

my bestest friend!
i know her more than u do!
even if your closed to her once.
dun even call her names cause i knw her the best.
i closer to her family better than u do.
like,excuse me?you said that people in this world arent perfect right?
so why the hell u spot people's mistakes by blogging about them without realising about urs?
oh why people like YOU still exist in this world?
only god knws about YOU.
sorry to say,i aint acting "alim" here but i'll just pray that people like YOU will be a betta person.
SOON..
say what you're gonna say but seriously,im not keeping quiet anymore.
all this while,i've been keeping quiet about what had happened to my bestie.
but not nw,"bende kecik,u wanna besar2 kan?call names?"
HAHAHA.im in!
btw,if u really think that my bestie is "not mature",well think again.
mature ppl wont find trouble,mature ppl dun complain small things to people, mature people wont let others involves in their arguements, mature people wont just blog but they'll say their unhappiness "face-to-face".
seriously la,dun u haf anything betta to do?
o.f.m.g
i aint listening to both of ur stories.
she might be having "5 minutes" of planning the future but who are YOU to say this all?
who's the one who's been wanting u to study?
who's d one who's been listening to your heart?
u might be saying all this words but i swear,one day..
u will regret!i swear,god will make u suffer like how u've been calling people names.
i admit,i did call people names.
like u said before,again,no ones perfect!
but i swear to god,i've nvr pushes to the limit,okay??
now,if u think u're MATURE,then i guess,u've got a better way to settle this.
thank you!HAHAHA.

p/s:this is all against my WILL not hers!
and yar, "SAPE MAKAN CILI,DIER TERASE PEDAS!"

2009-05-10T05:33:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody!first && for all,i wanna wish all mommas in this world a Happy Mothers' Day!
sorry momma,for not giving u anything this yr,not even a simple wish. but i hope u happy by the songs that i sang just nw.err,sorry momma?
Today follow momma to cuzzie house.her birthday treat la kaaan.Happy sweet 15th birthday!!im very tired today so i entertained my little cuzzies && took some pictures with them andd,
I SLEEP for a few hours.seriously cnnt take it.5 days not enuf sleep okay.

birthday girl.camera shy.

i'll end here bebeh!

2009-05-09T10:12:00.000-07:00

the name, kucing parsi is given to me.
"cine bukit"!!

today had a normal,un-kesuasanaan day.
went karoake with ika bby,ain bby wan & pekjal.
pekjal is currently having a pyrexia increasing to hyperexia!39.5 degree C
damn warm la his body!pitied him but he so stubborn u knw!
mati2 nak mkn pedas2,isap rkk,mkn ice cream,chocolates,strawberry..
macam nak jitaaaak je kepale dier!!
btw,to ika bby, dun be sad okay?cheer up!
we care for u and we dun wanna see u like this way..
i love you!

2009-05-08T23:41:00.000-07:00

as i promise that i'll update for this post.
i just went out with ain bby.
shes late for 1hr 25min!!
end up she blaja me pastamania..
ahahahaha
thank you ain bby!

2009-05-08T02:07:00.000-07:00

hey everyone.im bored so thought of updating my blog.
well,today im supposed to out with amsyar && faizal but last minute i cannot go.
i mommy ask me to visit my nenek.
hmm, its been a while i've not been visiting her so why not?
i cancel my plans for today and visit her.
anyway,shes not been feeling quite well nowadays.
okayy,so thats for later.
but now,im damn b.o.r.e.d!
nobody on9.waiting for that someone is soooo taking my patience away.haha.
hes been away for like 1 hour n 15 min?
anyway,many ppl asked me out frm tmr till d end of my hol.
but i dun know which to go??
POKAI!!!!!

2009-05-06T22:11:00.000-07:00

holla!i apologised for the "spider webs" in this blog.i just got my new laptop on last sunday.
so i really hope that i got lots of time to update my blog everyday.especially to those friends who keep nagging about the spider web thingy.alright,im too lazy to tell you all about my story from A-Z so i guess, i'll let the photos tell u the stories while i summarise everything.

done!want to know more?no worries, just beep me && i'll tell u the whole story.
takecare ya all!!

2008-06-03T04:53:00.000-07:00

hello.i had a great time yesterday!
GFs outing.
sadly,Naz couldn't join us.
she missed the fun you know.
i met Kym ferst then proceed to pondok 188.
met Bella,buy ciggies then to harbourfront by bus.
found spot at pahlawan beach where we celebrated Bella's birthday.
Farah came then Caca.
bought bread,tuna and NACHOs.
=DDD
we picniced,tanned and swimed.lot more..
seperated from Bella because she have to go out for a meal with Sam's mom.
left 4 of us.
laugh here and there.totally enjoyable!
we ate at the coffee shop at the interchange.
seperated from Farah.Jo fetched.
guess who we saw in the bus 188?
Farah's dad!fwuh!glad that Jo fetched her.
after Farah,then Caca.
a guy followed her everywhere.PANIC!
then kim,thinking what to reply him.
"tu la..ketawe banyak-banyak lagi."
im done.gotta talk on the phone with mr. Hairul Nizam Bin Sukaimi=DD

2008-05-26T20:56:00.000-07:00

to all my sayang.

i sincerely apologised for not updating my blog for f. ages , loves

especially to my dearest bestiie who re-template my blogskin &&

help me to update some few things.

the reason for not updating was unexplained

but really im quite busy with my life.

spending times with BTG && girlfriends is what i do everyday.

told you before that they are loved by me.

yes,they are still in my mind right now.

especially abg zaidi && hisyam.

i've not been meeting both of them for ages!!

busy with ns.

hmph.

its okay..

im sure i'll bump on them one day.

june hol. started.....

im going pahang...

bella going umrah...

blablabla...

continue later.

gotta go now.....

i love my BACEN!!

mr. hairul nizam bin sukaimi.

=DDDD!!

2008-04-11T07:14:00.000-07:00

i apologised for not updating for a week .
i've been very busy after school .
weekends full of plans .
for the past 2 weeks, i've been poured by bad luck .
always bumped into the person that i dun wish to see .
such as; ShafiQ =D
had v.b trainin wif BTG till achok & nizam came .
again, ShafiQ was dere too .
i late for school for both thurs .
last week,i had to pay $8 instead of $2 .
again, SWAY !
then,last friday was unbelievable !
i came to court and guess who i saw ??
its achok && ShafiQ playing takraw !!
pelik tapi benar *
on sturday .
i had v.b trainin wif BTG from 2pm till 11+pm with BTG .
the next day was wen i ferst saw a guy name Anga .
as in really2 see hym from top to the bottom .
not dirty-minded *
LOVES HIS SMILE !!
watched Zhenghua CSC played takraw for the tournament .
yes,they won .
had my eng prem. oral
it sucks so much okay .
both my 2 volleyball stucked on a tree on wed .
my shoes were dirtied by wan && the rest .
its okay.we got it back the next day .
i've attended my Detention Class yesterday .

just got my hp back last week .
and guess what ?!?!
naz's hp was confiscated today during physics lesson .
that mr. Ho !!
i pity naz,she cried and didnt pay attention through the whole day .

i'll end my speech for today .
thanks for ready yaw !!

gonna meet ANGA again on this sunday .
anyone wanna support zhenghua csc,
this sundaay at Hongkah cc at 1pm .
thank you .

2008-04-03T06:34:00.000-07:00

O1O4O8 .
GOT MY HP BACK .
WHILE EVERYONE GOT PRANKED !!

2008-03-29T21:11:00.000-07:00

nyoknyek nyoknyek !
totally got no time to update bloggie .
friday was CRAZY !
me && kym wont stop laughing .
we wen to imm after sch .
kym wanna survey hoodies and bags .
end up we ate at LJS .
laughlaugh*
mulot aku masin !
saw ben and syahmi .
then theres a few guys menggatals .
ee !so burok !
cant stop critising one another .
so tired okay following her go shopping .
anyway,thanks for the treat baby .

yesterday was SUPER tiring !
early in the morning went to sch for graffiti workshop .
then ate at bestari wif bestiie .
seperated .
to naz house for ve project .
and up chilling at her house .haha
playing sudoku and we're addicted to it .
when about to start the ve project
naz said, "shaz,yok maen volleyball.
aku feeling2 nak berpeloh la .
boleh la ."
so we played .
she did not want to stop playing till 8 !
took bus 302 && 188 ALONE .
met BTG .
guess what ?!
hisham came down laz minute for only 2 minutes .
i am soo missing my abg !
at last,he came down when he is botak .
went home at around 12 .
nagnagnag* by dad not mom .
HAHAHA .

im hungry right now .
no food,no nothing .
wanna cook but no fire .
wanna buy food but lazy .
so im just sitting here playing with my comp .
okay done !

2008-03-27T04:34:00.000-07:00

today,me && some other chosen malay students .
we went to "MAYAT"
a drama about a friendship of 4 girls && a guy .
they are living in the same house till the guy die .
the 4 of them were thinking on how to burry the guy
when the cemetery land is full .
(this part was so funny)
then,came a businessman who buy && sell dead bodies .
after the girls agreed on the price then they when to see the dead body is .
guess what ?
the dead body was no longer there .
the dead guy bacame a ghost .
and then it ended .
why is the ending is during the conclusion ?
forget it .
as long as i enjoyed it,it's good .
our stomach were having festival .
so naz,kym && i went to eat at wah sin store .
ate Mee Goreng till stomach full .
went home and now im updating .

yesterday was tiring .
after remedial,i went to volleyball practice with naz && kym .
sallehhudin was waiting for me at wah sin store with j.lo
seperated with j.lo then off we went to lepak with bella,sam && zat .
i enjoyed spending time with my ex .
they cant stop saying that we're so sweet that time .
i don't know why .
we just cant stop laughing && cracking jokes .
after so long,at last we spend the day together .
what to answer when he ask me why his patch was not accepted on 070707 .
im confused!

2008-03-27T04:14:00.000-07:00

THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST 9 MONTHS OF SINGLE .

the dae we accompanied naz to met zul .

this is Kai whom i've fallen for .(blurblur*)

The day we met Hyrie,Kai && Farok .

on the way to Jurong West for threading .

we seperated.I spent my day with the blackmetal peeps .
fin,roy,golly,ika,rahman,al,dyan,nabil&& lala

Cheer competition 2008 .

we're nervous okayy .

getting prepare for our class cheer competition .

5am in the morning.no bus so chilling at Blk 269 .

there's more of it .
anything just read my bestfriend's bloggie .

2008-03-25T07:28:00.000-07:00

PICTURE AFTER DRAGON BOATING.my darlings !

shaz is back is back is back !!
so fcuking long time never update la siol .
well,as usual,my life still having ups&&downs .
my relationship between me and salleh ended on 190607 .
and i've moved on with my girlfriends .
jyeah!im getting closer to them again.woohoo !!
i love my girlfriends .
especially my bestfriend,kim .
not to forget my other two babygurls,naz && bella .
they rock my life now .
putting aside boys .
its hard to find one nowadays.all ATTACHED !!
if not,all will be the SIALANs .
and yeah,i've found a guy named AfiQ .
then,a few guys which i don't really into them .
and now a guy named Khairi prefered to be call as Kai .
once again,he's ATTACHED .
so i decided to just forget about guys .

i've not been studying for the past few months .
my MYE is 5 more week to go .
still lepak-ing with friends .
oh i wish i can stop all this SHIT !
oh yah!about friends .
im starting to miss my girlfriends .
we dun really spend time together after school anymore .
not because we don't have time for each other
but to me,i feel that i dun have private talks with them .
as in really private,girls talk .
i don't know how to tell them **
im worry about us .
we're no longer that CLOSE .
i cried just now recalling back our past memories .
those jokes we had;those talks we had;those laughter we had .
im miss the old us .
as in really really miss my girlfriends alot .

about today .
as usual went to sch without homeworks .
lepak with ika,mami n friends .
tagged along with ammar,shah && mayor .
chao from there with new fren,shikin at 8pm .
now,here updating my long lost bloggie .
just had a phone call by kim baby .
she's crying .
F.C.U.K to those who hurt her .

2007-04-19T05:50:00.000-07:00

Wen I ferst saw u,
I was afraid to talk 2 u.
When I talk 2 u,
I was afraid 2 lyk u.
When I lyk u,
I was afraid 2 lub u.
But nw that I lub u,
I'm afraid 2 lose u.

its betta 2 loce my eyes
than 2 c u go.
its betta to lose my ears
than 2 c u sae "GOODBYE*"
its betta 2 lose my life
than 2 live w/o u.
its betta 2 lose everything
than to lose u...

Ur words played in mi mind
Hw I wish u'll always b mine
dis words seemed sincere && true
But nw I knew the real u
Dis memories of cuddles,hugs n kisses
Nw bleed,torn n dripped into pieces

i woke up crying from a dream
i was shot dead through the <3
i cried,nt bcoz i was afraid 2 die
bt bcoz insid mi <3>

U didnt juz break mi hart
U killed a part of it
A broken hart cn b mended
but smethin dead cant b healed

this is all for u baby.

2007-04-19T05:41:00.001-07:00

today i shuckks alot!
earli mornin reached at hys crib
called hym,someone answer bt no voice
i knew it was hym
i hung up n wen to sch
crying alone.
cant get hym* out of head.
i love hym so muchk.
all the sacrifices i've done to hym*
n dis is wat i gt?
fine..i'll juz accept it
baby,do u noe hw muchk iloveyou?
tuk mi medicines.
have a nice shivering day
mi medicines will laz 4 3 daes
after sch searh 4 hym*
PLEASE!DUN FORCE ME 2 B SOMEONEELSE!
had a conversation wif hym*
n i went home

2007-04-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

2007-04-16T01:07:00.000-07:00

today was shuckks alot!
HE was late for more than 10 min
wen to sch wit hym
ate mi tupidd farkin medicine in class
u noe wat??!
i got 3/30 for mi physic test
aiyo..farkin stress la siol!
tried to stay awake in d class
but felt asleep
d medincines was too strong
fark d nanny medicine!
chemistry lesson was boring
mt lesson slept the whole period!
thanks cikgu zurainy
ate mi prata
blablabla
VE lesson
dat tupid ms zan
kip on shooting on me
after sch met HYM
quarrell wif HYM
till now..haiix

2007-04-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

okay i enjoyed today!
wen out wif cyg,mar n fyan
met dem at last cabin jurong east
den to beach road
bought mar's bag
took bus to bugis
ate long john.
aku MATI MATI nak makan wantan noodle!
at last ate LJS.haiix.
walked to esplanade.
endless laugh!!
sat at d roof top.
one by one emo.
dat 3 guys menggatals!
haha!but mar's d bez..
he dun rrly join dat 2 guyz
den blablabla.
joked ard.
laugh*laugh*laugh*
took bus to bb
at bb inter-change
i wan to KENCING.
fyan wan to BERAK!
mar wan to MUNTAH.
cyg wan to KENTOT!
muahahahahah!!XD
wen to wm..toilet
bought bubble tea 4 me
seperated from fyan at McD
byebye fyan~!!
mar was broke so..
he asked for plain water at McD
hahahaha~!
byebye mar~!!
byebye cyg~!lub u(extra speacial)
hehehe!
home sweet home**
night night***

2007-04-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

Today earli mornin met syg.
wen sch den to canteen.
assemble,bella came to me
she gav me an apology brownies
DELICIOUS!she made it herself!
ate it in class.
bella apology accepted.
after sch gt MT ora
den rain again.
played in d rain
wen to bella's house
lepak2.
settled our probx
mamam sardine.
den roti ngan cheese
wen hme wif kim.
bath den slip.
den on9.

2007-04-12T05:52:00.000-07:00

today is a fabulous day!hehe
earli mornin wen to 7th floor,wait fer cyg
he was late by 1 min.LOL
reached sch bout 7.15
all probs were solved at laz
get to noe dat her so called "GUY"
bubble hym again..
blablabla..
after sch wait fer cyg
he gt self-study&d'n't
volleyball canceled
dat gurl sae wanna cum bt nvr attend
i rrly fed-up sakk!!
joke ard with ila,wani,jannah,izah
den left us 4.
ila was foolin ard wif her jokes
haha..i paisey lorr..
i felt lyk im so stupid sia..haha
wen hme wif syg.
den suddenli RAIN
"mandi hujan!"
wen hme ard 5.30
eat&slip
n update*

2007-04-11T05:49:00.000-07:00

today is a bad day!
wen out of mi house late.
wen to 213,6th floor
den i had to go sch alone
wen sch wif breathin difficulties.
assembly,nagged by mi form t'cher.
bcoz i didnt finish mi CR
wen to class dilly dally.
after homeroom is P.E
KICKBOXING TIME!
frenz dun let me do
coz im nt feelin well.
i dun give a damn.hehe
waah!i sweat a lot!
finish ready
wanted to go water cooler
half way walkin i had a blackout!
almost fainted
frenz brought me to water cooler
den to sickbed
kim&farah wen to buy breakfast 4 me
while naz accompanied me.
after eatin,dey wen off
so i managed to sleep 4 a while
till suddenli i heard mi syg's voice
n oso d 3 of dem
syg cme to me n sat beside me
he was worried till now
1 period is gone.
wen for recess.
after recess.classmates asked me ques.
haha!
after sch wen to McD.
oredi ordered d meal.
den suddenli mi card balance is $3.79
wth!mi balance supposed to be $4++
n i use pass so no nid deduct.
haiix.bad luck
canceled it n buy other food to complete 1 meal.
wen bck sch.
talked to her**
after dat wen to NAFFA TEST!
i managed to do all of dem.
den,her** msged intan.
haiix.we sometime okay sometime not okay.
im confused!
nemind.i duwan sae bout tat so much.
took bus hme wif kim.
lepak pat red seat till 4.30
talked about our lyfe n blablabla.
wen home straight
first,to the toilet.
den eat mi medicine n BAM!
wen to slip.
and nw...im ere updating.
peace*

2007-04-10T04:23:00.000-07:00

wat a fark farkin day TODAY!
mre fights n mre fights!
from frenz bcum enemy
i don noe hu to trust nowadays
i dun wish to talk bout today
but one ting eh
ader tk org ckp kuat2
psl sengaje??
tell u wat!
if u dunnoe hu d hell am i..
den farkoff la eh!?
backoff if u cant take mi jokes
n d way u kutok org
is WORSE den me
so hati tu tak pyh nk bengkak
nk cold war ngan aku
JAHANAM LA EH!?

2007-04-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

i had enuf of TODAY!
ferst,i gt to noe dat gt cold war
btween smeone n sumone
den i tried to "lepas tangan"
after sch bought baby's wear 4 Raiyan
den met syg.pass hym mi hp
met systaLurbbs n wen wm.
tought of wrapin dat box at naz's crib
changed mi mind.
wen to Bestari n eat n eat.
wen to adeQq Nunu's crib.
and lastly,home sweet home.
even if i gt a cold war wif naz.
b4 anitin hppn ehk,
thanks fer choosin d baby's wear for me
i gt one feelin tat we're no longer b tugeda.
i had enuf of u.
ur playin wif mi patience.
STOP IT SAKK!
i juz cnt tke it wen u acted lyk dis
if u dun force me,
dun nid to show any stupid farkin face la..
mane tak bingit sakk aku!

2007-04-08T07:40:00.000-07:00

hmm.since i gt complains abt not updating mi blog.
i'll update mine now.
lots of things happenin nowadays.
too much problems to say..
everywhre i go gt fights.
n i?lyk a wall tryin to stop dem frm fightin.
celebrated our 8th month anni.
haix..dat was our laz day tugeda.
after dat im now alone waitin for november.
i rrly mish hym a lot!
onli 2 days da takle tahan.
he wants to learn.
so i respect hys decision.
promising dat i'll wait for hym 4 7 months.
the time is runnin very slow.
im goin mad u see!
i love u syg.
i'll do anitin for u.
dun ever forgt me syg.
i duwan to lose u for d second tym.
we haf made dis far.
n hope dis will be me n u.
till d end of the world syg.
till ere.
i want u to tell u dat i LOVE u so much!
i trust u.
dun ever disappoint me syg.

2007-03-16T19:38:00.000-07:00

ermm..soooo long nvr update
olrite..im lazy okayy?
too many problems n too many school stuff to do
sumre gt smethin goin on btween mi family wif abg shahril
aiyo..headache la seii
aniway...wat for if i gt blog everyday rite??
nobody is reading mine..not even a single tag
hmm..if u are reading dis..
tell me if u want me to blogging or juz delete it
if no one going to giv me a reply in 1 month
i'll take it as a
"yes,pls go n delete ur blog.i haf no tym to read urs."
so thank you and bye bye*

♥Ðộủβľě Ŝ- ♪♫♪ hati ini tak nak berpisah ♫♪♪

2007-02-02T20:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DOUBLE S!!

i really lurf u from the bottom of ma hart!

HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY RINAIDIL!!
moga korang berkekalan hingga akhir hayat......

AMIN. AMIN. AMIN.

2007-01-27T02:11:00.000-08:00

hina la.benci la.kutok la.
i juz dun cre to wat u're goin to sae
i'll juz close one ear
u promised me alot of time not to play dat kind of joke on me
but u did again
im a human being ok.
lebih bgos i go myself
i felt nobody accompany me.
wen out alone.
den met smeone.
den wen hme ALONE!
im a stranger!
p/s: pls treat me like a stranger.
hate me.cursed me.
and more me.

2007-01-20T19:59:00.000-08:00

eeeee...aku kopet!!!!

WAAH3...long tym never update...
im lazy too type everithin dat hppned wen i gone
so juz tell u guys bout me&friends
now me not so close to kim,naz n all but i now close wif nabilah n liyana!
woohoo!
yest. wen ngee ann poly wif nabilah n yana.
we had loadx of fun there.

2006-12-06T04:06:00.000-08:00

us at d chalet.we're tired.lol.wanted to tonned at dere but tk jadi

luk at aidil sleeping!i tuk d pic den go d others
funfunfun.
he sleep lyk a baby.haha

waiting fer hym while hes eating at hys hommiie
IM WAITING FOR CYG AT KIM'S HOUSE
hmm.yest.
met kim while waitin fer cyg.