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LURVE SUX!HTE MI LYF!
D PRSN HU I RRLY LURVE WILL OLWAES BREAK MI HART!
D PRSN DAT I DUN TRULY LURVE WILL OLWAES DERE FER ME!
WAD I CN SAE?!IRFAN IS SUCH ANOTHER SWIT TOKER MOTHA TOKER!
SWIT TOKS EVERIWHRE!
THNX TO AFIQ!
MULOT YG CABOL SLALU CKP PSL AKU BREAK NGN DIER!
FUCK! FCUK! FCUK!
WAD I'VE DREAMNT IS TRU!
SME TYM!SME PLACE!SME CONDITIONS!
SME CUTS!SME BLOOD!LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!



wds wrong wif me?!
asl kene jad gini?
asl tk mcm dulu?
everi0nes CHANGING!
elmos changin!
irfans changin!
evn me maself is changin!
urgh!why muz dis happen everitym i fall fer sumone?
y i hot temp. nowadays!
throwin tantrumS at everib0dy
evn mi guy t00!
d one n only guy tat i dun wish to b let go!!
guess im changin to d 0ld me.
d prsn tat u don wish to be met.
d wrst me!
sape2 yg tau perangai aku dulu
mmg naseb kau baek psl kau tau nk handle aku.
espeacialli u,kim!u noe me veri well.
so guess u noe hw to handle me.
budd to those hu doesnt noe, tats too bad.
coz u haf to learn d new me(old one)
sae gudbye to d gal tat u juz noe
coz dere will b a new in her.
budd to others,im rrly2 sori.
u haf to start a new
wastin ur tym to gt to me agaen.
im bored wif ma lyf rite nw.
d tym is goin too slow.
frenz r gettin much apart.
aites.now now.
im tellin ya some part of ma old att.
hmm.nw,ur nt goin to see mi tears
wettin mi cheeks juz bcoz of someone.
i mean d useless.no mre sharin tears!
budd if u c mi cheeks r wet,
tat means i've juz hd a fite wif sumone.
coz i cnt kip high temp. in mi body.
wen mi tears runnin dwn mi cheeks,
it will cool me a lil.
im d prsn tat dun evn cre bout ppl feelins
trust me.u're gonna hte me
n mi lyf will b sooner b in loneliness.
ok la.to b SHORT STORY session
i cn b bck to mi old tomboyish type of gal.
gud luck into knowin me!sayonara!


todae is memorable dae!
n i gt BUIHed by bil,hin n man!
it was sway!
6 sumthinkk oredi dn da mlz nk carik!
wn JP to tke buz inter-change bt mom kolled.
telling mi tat cik nam ask mi to kol her.
bt she kolled me instead.
askin mi whether i wanna go watch movie anot.
wat cn i sae dn?of coz i'll g0!!
kim borrowed mi $5 n paid mi aunt $7.
watch CARS.
after tat we ate at long john silver.
im damn t00 retartXXXX!
everi0ne were influence by me to b cwaziie!!!
it was great!!!!
everi0ne starts to gt along wif kim in a blinkk!
amazing isn't it!
reached hme at ard 11.10pm.
no 0ne is at hme!
cn BERGANT0NG!!!woohoo!
k la...im tired readii.nitez!



haiix.i rrly dunnoe wats happemin rite nw...
d werld is turnin into d opposite direction AGAEN.
im tryin to ask everione AGAEN.
WDS D MEANIN OF LURVE????
nonono.
im nt changin mi answer.
im nt goin lose another guy.
nonono.
n juz hpin tat i wont!
i juz wanna noe wds true lurve is oll bout???
nw,d tym is goin TOO SLOW fer me
to understand everythin tats goin on btween me n dem
y is dis haf to happen everitym i fall fer sumone?
to mi lembu:

thnx fer d hpes n confidence u gav mi.
i appreciate it lotx!
but im gonna promise u tat i wont giv up
on u,hym,naz,afiq n ppl hu i love.

to everi0ne:

im bein TOO sensitive n emotional since few daes.
i appologise to everi0ne if im startin to hurt everi0ne.
or evn starts scoldin u guyz
EVEN u guyz didnt mke any mistake.
haiix.everi0ne startin nt to noe wds goin on wif dem.
no mre calls,no mre nutinkk!!!!!!!! ='(
im PURELY sad rite nw. =(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((


HES BCK!!WOOS!!!!!
JGN KEMBANG AR BLER DA BACE...
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.....


a dae had gne.
but ur still nt bck yet.
i gt a dream tat i 've nvr wish for .
n nw im wishin tat it wun cum alive.
dun ask mi wat happen or wat i've dreamt.
i juz dun wanna tell coz i realli cried
after i woke up frm mi dream.
i waited for hys call till 6am in d mornin.
bt still hes nt hme yet.
i fell asleep dis mornin till 12pm
nw is 2.16pm.
yest. day i cried d most!
dun ask mi y dn.


the dae we started a new lyfe tugeda

today is d eighth day hes gne!!
he shuld b bck by nw.
bt deres no sign of hym.
slept at ard 5.30 in d mornin.
woke up at ard 10+.
time is mvin veri slow.
at ard one o'clock,no sign.
at ard two,no sign.
at ard three,no sign.
at ard four,still no sign.
at ard five,nahh...
at ard six,nopez
at ard SEVEN, STILL NO SIGN!!
argh!!!!!cnt tke dis anymre!!
the sun is down bt still no sign of u.
since u hte the sun so much,
im rite ere waitin fer ur call in d darkness
cryin n hpin tat u'll b bck by todae.
im sick n tired of bein alone.
i want u to b wif me
countin dwn our anniversary day tugeda





second dae was great too!!
wnt to mines wonderland!!
bought kim a Mickey Mouse hp casing n ride a boat.
played in d snow house
ride a mini tram roller coaster,
car ride n mre! funfunfun
bought maself a jeans agaen woohoo!
third dae GREAT!
wnt for PETROSAINS!
funfunfun. bt kn..
rushed for s'pore n were seperated at gelang patah.
we pray eat n pray.
kanna saman at johor checkpoint.
it was cik aai's fault!!!
dn s'pore checkpoint was jammed!
haiix..bad dae sia..
one mre dae..
IRFAN WILL BE BCK IN S'PORE!!!
yeayy!!!
love. mish .hart. hug. EUU!!!!

Fell in love you @ Friday, June 16, 2006

Tuesday, June 13 ♥

HALOOS!!!!i nw in KUALA LUMPUR!
hmm.mi ferst dae was great ere!!
wnt to eat at RAIHAN'S CAFE
b4 we set off fer our destination to KL.
FINAL DESTINATION LA KATERKN...HAHAX!
okehh bedek..muz jage mulot bler kt sini..hehe
goin lyk normal..bt kn..
i stay in MICASA ALL SUITE HOTEL!!woos!
zack n cody la katerkn..hehe
k la..end ere ferst..mish irfan loadxx leh..
continue tmr den...ermm...MAYBE
MISH U ALL!!!!

Fell in love you @ Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Monday, June 12 ♥

todae wnt out wif kim and radha to watch movie.
movie was cancel at d laz minit.
we wnt to eat at banquet.
haiix.gt memories dere.
we ate our own food except ME.
didnt eat at oll nt evn tastin it.
onli drank bandung tats oll.
olrite.actualli i was hungry bt no appetite agaen.
i tink u shuld noe y la.
no nid to tell one.
dn wok2 at jurong point, kim n radha bought sumthin.
i onli help dem to choose.
nt bcoz i haf no money$$$ bt i dunnoe wat to buy.
actualli i was d wn dat wanna shoppin
bt in d end dey were d wn.
tuk bus no. 157 to fetch radha's bro, ruben.
radha n ruben wn hme.
me n kim wok2 around jurong west.
i cn imagine dat tym we ran frm irfan's house to rulang pri. haiix.memories.memories.
wn hme.blablabla.
kol naz.conferance wif elmo. hung up d fon.borin!!
kol kim.we mke alot of prank calls.
funfunfun.cnnt carry.
cnfernce wif elmo agaen.
haf to hang up.sayin gudbye to each other.
blablabla.
wnt for bed.mi eyes were heavy nw.
GUDNITE!

Fell in love you @ Monday, June 12, 2006

♥

haiix. 6 mre daes. im missing HYM veri much.

i dunnoe la. dis few daes...

i cnt slip well, dun eat much.

its lyk i haf NO APPETITE

but actualli i was HUNGRY TO DEATH.haiix.

guess im missing HYM veri badly.

WHEN WILL HE'LL BE BCK HME?????

8 daes lyk a FEW WEEKS!!!!!!

every single day is lyk 4-5daes.

haiix. im rite ere WAITIN

countin each and every day he's gne and bck.

i missing hys TOUCH, hys VOICE, hys SMILE.

wat i cn sae is tat I MISH HYM LOADXXX!!!

mish the dae i spent wif hym on 26/5 and 28/5

MEMORABLE DAE!!

tmr im off to KL agaen. CHANGE plan agaen.

SHIT LA!cnt countdown in msn.

haiix. olrite den.

haben take a rest.

tmr i CHAO oredi.

really need a REST.

REST, REST, REST!!

REST IN PEACE LA!!!!!!!

Fell in love you @ Monday, June 12, 2006

Saturday, June 10 ♥

heyya oll!hmm.juz cme bck frm KL yest. nite!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
hw was it???
let me tink.quite tiring la.n bored too u noe.
mi ferst dae was okay okay laidat.
woke up early in d mornin n mit up mi eldest systa n hubby.
bought food for bus journey at McD n off we go to KL.
blablabla.jahjahjah.XD
quite fun la on d bus.i sang loudli in d bus.
hehe.okehh bedek.bt i sang nt loud enough for oll to hear XD!
reached KL at ard 12 sumtynkk.took d train to PWTC n wok to our hotel destination.
long way!mi legs were tired!
jahjahjah.
wait fer others to reached.borin!
wok n shop.wok n shop.BT I DUN!!
bck in hotel at ard 7 sumthynkk n i cleep ferst. XD!
our second dae was one of d worst day of mi lyf!
tuk cre of d TWO LIL TIGER CUBS was tiring!
must.must.must!
wen to KL CENTRAL to book up flight tix for mi both elder sys n br0 in law.
mommy TIGER was bck hme at laz at ard 9 plus.
blablabla.go eat till we full n we of to LALA land!
AND.the third dae was fun. fun. fun.
d three explorers were off for shoppin n blablabla.
set for putrajaya(Alamanda shopping mall) by car.
mommy, daddy n both aunt n uncle wen to eat.
while i accompanied SYARAF to watch.see.buy.play.
hys THOMAS AND FRIENDS.
blablabla.all were rushin except me.
told mi mom to gib mi sme tym for shoppin for maself.
bought sme stuff fer me n frenz.
bag.shoe.hp chain.
n mani mani for me.
lollipop.friendship clips.gelangz.pensilx.
fer mi dearli frenz.
jahjahjah.okehh.done fer oll three daes.
continue for nxt week holiday.cnt wait.im off to INDONESIA for 3 daes.
bye.lmk,lapar la pulak. XD!

Fell in love you @ Saturday, June 10, 2006

Sunday, June 4 ♥

Fell in love you @ Sunday, June 04, 2006

Friday, June 2 ♥

THE CAMP SUXX TO THE CORE !! XDD

Fell in love you @ Friday, June 02, 2006

Thursday, June 1 ♥

HAPPY BDAE KATHY !! .
thx alot2 for the tepong n telor . wakakaa ! u to0s . ((:

leaving for camp tmr . be bck by sat . love u n only u .

Fell in love you @ Thursday, June 01, 2006

♥

hmmm....on the 300506, kim nangez rabak!
tats d ferst tyme she cry lyk dis on d fon...
she cnt clip..she cried oll d way...
nxt mornin,hurr eyes LEBAM KE BENGKAK ..
hmm....tinkin tat its too much fer to handle her probs
after one probs...another one cum
on 010606..BB n mie start a new ife tugeda.lolol
i found out tat BB noe mi frenz..teehee
startin a new fresh of kim n ammar
it may be a gud n bad news fer kim
on 020606..sick mann!fever....fcuk la...
no appitite to eat liao...haiix...

Fell in love you @ Thursday, June 01, 2006